Friday, November 20, 2009

Oh more thing

Eevee turned 1 on Oct. 3rd 2009

National Honor Society...4.66 GPA!!!

I am so proud of you cookie!!!

Aquarium...kinda, bits and pieces!

My Birthday!

Thing1, Thing 2 and Knuckles!


This Life of mine!

Um, yeah so.......
I guess it has been awhile huh?
So much has happened in the last few months....(holy crap a little more than a month until x-mas???) Can you believe this year has gone so very fast!
I started a new medical thingy for my headaches, IT WORKS! I cant even begin to say how wonderful it is to wake up in the morning and not be in pain all day everyday! my knee surgery didn't work, that sucks) and the Dr. says they can't do anything else other than replace it completely and I think I will wait until I can no longer stand it before I take that route.
Thing 1 got a job and a driver's license, talk about heart attack! She got a Hostessing position at one of the more upscale Metro restaurants. She is so excited to be making her own money, she always for some reason had trouble asking for money for anything,(not kidding, you should see some of the child's under things, wow! Salvation Army wouldn't even take em!) I have something else to stress over now even though I know she is a great driver, it is the other idiots out there that I will worried about!
Thing 2, well I just has a text conversation with him and his new signature is "CARLY <3",>, I am not entirely sure that I am comfortable with this. This is the first time he has ever expressed his affection towards a girl in this open of a manner, he usually goes through girls more than he changes his underwear, no joke. I just hope he paid attention in health class.
Frankie and I have just discovered the land of Apps on Crackbook so I am glad we have 2 laptops other than just the home PC. That way we can still sit next to each other instead of having to take turns in the other room. We actually have been watching some TV shows on that NetFlix instant thingy on the xBox and laptops, so far 3 seasons of Dexter (so frickin' awesome), 2 seasons of Weeds, and 1/2 way into the second season of lost(which is a lot because it is 25 episodes in stead of the regular 12.) I can't believe we have never gotten into it before now cause it rocks!!! But my favorite show America's Next Top Model is over * :( sad face* and Frankie is quite proud of himself. At the beginning of every season we both chose 2 girls we believe can or will win. Nicole was his first choice. I am really liking what Tyra is doing with the show, picking a theme, I can't wait to see what she comes up with next. We don't watch too much TV around here until lately. The shows we normally watch, like can't miss, are ANTM, House, Fringe and Bones. If we are around we will watch CSI, Lie to me, NCIS LA, 90210, Doll House, and The Good Wife.
All in all things have been pretty good here, I am just getting over what the Doc says is, da-da-dah....Swine Flu, so money has been (beans and wieners) tight. I am just glad I have a county job and they have epidemic policies in place so I am not going to get fired for missing so much work.
Our other new obsession is our 60 gallon Saltwater Aquarium. It is one of the coolest things I have ever experienced, from putting in just the right mix of salt to live rock, coral, fish...all of it has been amazing. I was apprehensive at first, I though it was just going to be another one of Frankie's expensive hobbies that he gets in to then gets sick of in 3 or 4 months and forgets about. No way I am letting this go, I love just sitting in front of the tank watching everything sway and float serenely through the water and the fish are so vibrant and beautiful. I will see if I can find a picture to share that is representative of how awesome it is.
I have blabbed enough and the boys are yelling for some food so I need to go but I will be back soon, I forgot how nice it is to get everything out here. Been keeping too much in, having some stress attacks lately and I think I know why. My 1 year blogiversary passed and I didn't even realize so happy 1 year for me.....w00t.
Hope all is well with you, and don't think that because I haven't commented I haven't been reading. See ya on the flip side!

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

I suck at follow-ups

I know , I know, I have this really bad habit of feeling like I am on the right track and doing good things then I slip, sometimes I just plain fall on my ass. part of my problem right now is(excuses excuses) that I have this ancient laptop that doesn't have a WI-Fi thinga-mabob/jiggy and takes for ever, the enter key has to be practically hit with a hammer to work. My life is in shambles right now and I feel sometimes that when I write here all I ever do is complain. My life, other than health problems really isn't that bad. Frankie and I have continued with out counseling and have our ups and downs. I have a procedure done called an Occipital Nerve Block where they inject cortical steroids into the back of you head and supposeDly (yes the capitol D is on purpose, it drives me crazy when people say supposaBly) it is supposed to relieve all head aches for 4-6 weeks, it worked for about three days and I woke in the middle of the night with the worst Migraine I think I have ever had. I take a pretty heavy dose of sleeping pill so I can sleep through the head-aches but even that didn't help. If you ask any member of my family I don't cry very easily and this morning was definitely a total emotional break down. I cried for myself and it actually felt good, didn't make the head-ache better but made my emotional state a tad better. I can't write anymore today, i would say I will try to write more soon, but you all know me better than that! love to all and hope this finds you all well!!! Maybe my kiddo and I will write more of our story this weekend, oh btw I will be 36 on Monday the 5th, wish me well!

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Sunday's are my favorite....

day of the week, a normal Sunday consists of sun, fun, family, and food. The thought of not being a part of this family nearly killed me. I am so thankful that everything worked its way out with no bad endings. My family has no traditions what so ever. Christmas , nothing....the only Holiday that has ever meant anything is Halloween or more Day of the Dead. I just wanted everyone to know that I am having a fantastic day, my husband and I woke up late, he didn't leave me for the skate park. we showered and headed out to cruise thrift stores and pawn shops in search of the perfect sized table/desk/whatever to hold a 48" x 15" Saltwater Fish tank. It Has to be sturdy enough to hold 500lbs. On the other front, the TEX-BFF has not yet had her baby, my children have gone from loathing the child to being so excited I have barely seen them in the last week as they have been at his and HER house for always. Love to all hope your weekends are going well and I will see ya on the Flip Side!!! XOXO

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Not the story,, my life....

Today I have accepted that I have a problem, I have no control over myself. Well no self control...those are two totally different things! I hope everyone had a great time at Blog her, maybe if they ever throw one on the west coast I will be able to show up. Went in for my final appointment today, I basically had knee surgery so they could tell me the can not fix my problem as it is my kneecaps. To be precise I have floating meniscus'(menisci?, meniscus's) both knees anyhow. This is an incurable thing leads to severe in both knees. The Dr. claims this condition is usually caused by height and weight and exercise issues., but since i am 6'2" and 155lbs and walk some, not a lot. He gave me a script for Vicoden and said "deal". I get to go back to work on the 4th of august.....Yeah, the last few days have almost called me from boredom. I haven't been to work in a month and a half. My job is extremely boring but apparently I enjoy it more than I thought.
Back to my total lack of self-control, I don't want to get into it right now so I will save it for the next post. I love all of you and will write again soon!

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Chapter Two....updated.

At that Evelyn left the drab green office. As she walked briskly out onto the sidewalk she began to think of all the things she could have said to Dr. Lacey. she thought of the woman who at work ate her lunch immersed in her own troubled world. Evelyn worried that one day that small insignificant woman would no longer be there, and if anyone would even care? She thought of speaking about the house she grew up in, not really a house but a cottage. And her Father and how he worked very hard and provided well for their family so that Evelyn's mother could stay home and take care of all the mundane things that HE could not be bothered with. She decided to spend the rest of her day in her apartment watching old movies. The next day she rose for work and as she was walking down the street because she couldn't find a cab, she decided to waste the fifty cents and buy a newspaper just to see that everyone else pain and misery was worse than hers. Among the pages of death and destruction she found the missing children page, and there was the face that plagued her. It was the face of the young girl from the other day. At this Evelyn decided to retrace her path from the previous day in hopes that she would spot the missing girl, whose name the paper said was Olivia Jane. As Evelyn walked towards Dr. Lacey's Office she watched everyone around her and wondered if they even had read about little Olivia. Evelyn decided that while she was searching by herself she should call the number in the paper that was asking for any information. The phone rang half of a ring and a man picked up "Hello, Hello?" Evelyn suddenly had second thoughts while remembering what the child had said yesterday before running quickly away. "I'm sorry, about your daughter I mean.... but I think I saw her yesterday" she said. " You saw Livy, where, when, was she okay?" he sounded genuinely concerned. Evelyn explained to the man,whose name was Gregg, that when she had seen Olivia Jane the little girl had been clean and relatively good, yet extremely upset. Evelyn decided at this point that honesty was the best thing and told Gregg exactly what the child had said.

Friday, July 17, 2009


This is a collaboration between myself and Thing1, my writing is in Purple hers is blue.

Once there was a woman named Evelyn, she had many problems. To her they seemed insurmountable, unattainable goals, full of hopelessness. She was a very serious girl, never laughing, crying or showing any type of emotional weakness.
She had the emotional hide of a rhinoceros. In spite of her what seemed to be unbearable life, she was beautiful. Her hair was perfect; long, wavy and a deep red. Her lips full but subtle and soft. Her delicate features made her stand out in a crowd. However, her eyes were stone gray, and for people who cared to notice, they truly showed her pain. They were her one point of weakness and told her story with a connecting glance.
One day as she was walking in the city she came across a small child. The child had long blond hair, the color of the noon day sun. Her eyes were the same shade of Grey as Evelyn's own. The small girl although seemingly lost showed no signs of fear. Evelyn asked, "Is there someone you're waiting for, or someplace you should be?" The small girl exclaimed "I am never going home, my mommy doesn't love me the same as she loves him!" Evelyn thought about the right way to go about this, it could very well turn into apotentially bad situation quickly.
Then Evelyn opened her mouth to speak to the child, but as soon as she could and did, the child had turned and ran away from her. Evelyn tried to follow her, but the young girl was lost in the crowd witin seconds. The thought of this child plagued her mind for about five minutes, but being the self absorbed person she was, she decided that she didn't have time to worry about it now. Evelyn decide if the girl was still there after her appointment she could and would worry about it then. For now she had far more pressing things to take car of. Mainly her financial situation, which was quickly spiraling out of control, and the recent turn of events that had befallen her. Her parents had decided to die at an extremely inconvenient time and it was all she could do to keep food on her table and a bottle of wine in the fridge. You would think that in this type of situation someone would be depressed and miserable, the only thing that was troublesome for her about her parents losing their lives was that she had to pay for the funeral and for the credit cards, not to mention the therapist bills that she has to pay for. Her past with her parents was basically non- existent. They were the reason her heart was as cold as ice, and the reason that no one knew the way she really felt. For so long her feelings have been buried, buried beneath the layers of lies and excuses that kept her from saying what's really going on in her head. The endless string of therapist and drugs only solidified the fact that the one person in the world she need was herself. As Evelyn walked into the office building she shrugged out of her lightweight rain jacket. She had moved to Seattle, Washington long before her parents had even become sick. The skies here matched her eyes perfectly. Sitting in the dull waiting room of her therapist's office never made things any better.The terrible green color of the walls was supposed to be calming but instead it reminded her of the awful color of her parents couch in high school. There were water stained magazines on the end tables so that the patients would be occupied while waiting, waiting to spill out the contents of their lonely lives on to the chaise lounge that awaited them. There were fake plants in every corner collecting dust, being neglected just like every sap that walked into this terrible place. Today she was here to talk about her parents, her therapist suggested it after hearing about their recent death. A woman turned the corner and called her name after looking at the clipboard with a slight snarl. Evelyn stood up and took the long walk down the hallway to the room everyone dreaded to enter. Dr. Lacey greeted her with a warm smile, that for anyone else would make their knees tremble and their heart skip a beat but Evelyn was unaffected. It isn't that she did not find Dr. Love (as she called him behind his back) attractive. It was simply that Evelyn knew she had no time for such nonsense in her life right now. Dr. Lacey asked her to sit down and just once she wished she could say no, but she sat. The instant barage of questioning began, how was your week, any episodes of hysteria, suicidal thoughts, any urges to hurt other people? Eveyln answered "No" to these as she always did. Her grandfather had commited suicide and she saw it simply as the cowards way out. Her father had taught her to stand and face your problems, look them in the eye....this today brought a single tear to her eye. As she quickly brushed it away she looked up from under her lashes to see if Dr. Sexy had seen, he hadn't. He to was looking down, only he was looking at a clipboard full of notes from past sessions. Still looking down towards the floor she asked, "Do you think this is the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?" He looked up waiting for her eyes to glance towards him, but today he seemed to be the patron saint of lost causes. Finally he replied, "That is a very deep question that may take some time for me to answer." In the mean time is there anything you would like to talk about? Eveyln started..... well Doctor, on my way here I ran into a little girl, she seemed to me to be lost and alone but when I asked her, she burst out an ran. I cant seem to get her off my mind now that I've thought of it, and I can't help to think that I was meant to come across her. To which he replied, "Do you believe she was some sort of sign?" Evelyn then said, "You know never mind, Its not important." She was lying, to him and to herself. They sat in silence for almost a minute until they both spoke at the same time, causing another akward silence which was followed by Dr. Lacey's voice reminding Evelyn that she could speak her mind here and that within these walls he was nothing more than a confidant to whom she could trust with anything. That if there was going to be any change she had to be willing to talk. She nodded but then asked is this session over? And Dr. Lacey replied in his soothing voice, only if you want it to be.

Friday, July 3, 2009

The end of a nightmare

I know that I never told the whole story, I was having a horrid last couple of days. Two weekends ago I did a very wrong bad thing. A thing that has gotten me in trouble more than once, more like a thousand times. Something so bad that my husband told me if I did it again he could no longer live with me. The last time i did it was more than two years ago. When the deed was done, all said and done, Frankie told me he could no longer tolerate my actions and that I was not hurting myself so much as everyone who cared for me. Then....he left and my world fell to pieces. I couldn't eat or sleep. Normal actions and thoughts were nearly impossible. I cried, I screamed, my children stopped talking to me, my doctor medicated me to the point where I was afraid to drive. At times I did not feel like i had the will to continue living. The only thing that kept me sane was the thought of my children growing older without me seeing or knowing how they will turn out. Tonight my whole world started spinning again, i can see and feel and I never want to feel the way I did again. Tonight he told me he wants to come home and work things out. He wants to try to make things right. I know that it isn't over, the worst is yet to come, self realization sucks. For I'm I will do anything, I have never felt as if my every breath depended on someone else's love and understanding. I am whole with him, without him I feel like I have no soul. My Frankie is coming home and I couldn't be more ecstatic! Wish me luck trying to make myself a better person for me and everyone I love. The rest is yet to come, the BEST is yet to come. I love you Frankie, please be patient with me and hold my hand while i wallow through all of the memories and pain. Thank you and Good Night!

Monday, June 29, 2009

Kind of a meme.....

I got this off of Charm School's blog and I found it just right, what kind of friends do you have? Unfortunatley I don't have too many of any of them right now.
  • Acquaintances. These are the people that I speak to randomly, when we are thrown together in some sort of a social situation.
  • Friends. These are the people that I can speak to on a whim, without having to have some sort of a social situation to pull us together.
  • Good Friends. These are the people that I can go to and I'm pretty sure that they can be depended upon to pull me out from underneath my little black rain cloud.
  • Great Friends. These are the people that I can go to and I'm sure that they can be depended upon to pull me out from underneath my little black rain cloud and would keep my secrets for me.  If I paid them enough, they'd even watch my kids for me if I needed them to.
  • Best Friends. These are the people that I can go to and I'm 100% positively certain that they can be depended upon to pull me out from underneath my little black rain cloud.  These people can be counted on through thick and thin to lift my spirits, keep my secrets and will wonder why I didn't ask them first instead of scrambling to find someone else to babysit (provided they are geographically able to assist me in that).  I'm lucky enough that I have (according to me) two of these.
  • Bestest Friend. Words can't even describe how much having this kind of friend means to me.
I think I have 1 Good Friend and a few Friends.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Wowie Zowie,,,,,

So much has happened since Sunday, for those of you who follow me on Twitter you probably know kind of whats going on. Leaving out the gory details...Saturday night I went out with a girlfriend and got shitty drunk and didn't make it home until 4:30 in the morning. Sunday morning my husband put some clothes in a garbage bag packed up his PS3 and promptly left my sorry ass. i slept and wallowed in my own misery most of the day on Sunday and about 5 or 6pm he came over to talk. we chatted for a couple hours and I thought things were going better and when he made a move on me I assumed he was thinking he was coming back....yeah not so much. he had sex with me then picked up and left.
While you digest that I am going to mull Monday around in my head and will pick up tomorrow where I stopped today.
Sweetness and love

Friday, June 19, 2009

i know, i know

So I feel bad because I have not posted in like almost 4 weeks. Truth of the matter is I haven't done much of anything lately, I am kindof in a funk. I got my blackberry and got all caught up in twitter and I haven't been working a lot but mostly I have been sleeping. My headaches are still taking up most of my energy and sanity. We have a bunch of family in town right now and the ex's baby shower is this weekend, I am just generally a wreck! I know this is a sorry excuse for a post and in all reality I should be venting here. Journaling would probably help a lot. I am making myself a promise right here right now, I am going to postat least 3 times a week. If I don't will someone call me out please? TTFN.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009


I feel like a total smuck, I haven't touched my reader or written anything since opening a twitter account. Tell me yopu still love me please, you can find me on twitter, my name is .... Galexygirl!! Lol

Thursday, May 14, 2009

baby girl

I caved...

I just joined Twitter, if anyone loves me enough, follow me and I will get ya back!

Monday, May 11, 2009


I just watched mah baby brother get his first tattoo! I am so proud! He got a kick ass tarantula on his arm. Will post pictures when I get home.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

So I am sitting on my couch watching the boys play little big planet on the ps3... We went and had lunch and ice cream and I have a tummyache because I ate too much. I love my new crackberry although the battery life is sucky when you are on it for too long. Saturdays rock.

Friday, May 8, 2009


I just got a new Blackberry Curve, anyone care to tell me how to install e-mail and contacts for BBM on the damn thing???

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

One more thing....

Oh by the way...not only is it earth day, it Administrative professionals day! Did my boss do or say anything???
(Anybody else feel like they give their soul to the devil and get squat in return??)
(I'll get mine one of these days!)

Oh Wednesday....

I went to the doctor last Friday to have my monthly medication check, we are trying something new for the headaches. High blood pressure meds, how does that work. Anyway all I know is that since I have started taking them I am super more tired in the morning and my fingers and ankles are swollen until a couple hours after I get out of bed. Now I don't have high blood pressure, mine is normally, actually always, around 116/73 so the fact that they put me on these meds causes concern. My doctor said that it could possibly cause dizziness or fainting and so I should take it at night. The purpose is to keep my headaches from forming in the first place but I just don't get it. So far...not working. I have tried so many different pills for this preventative measure....Nothing has worked, I am almost ready to give up!!! What I am getting at, does anyone know any herbal remedy's, or old wives tales etc. to prevent headaches. Once it starts my life is over, if I could just keep it from starting.  I have migraine pills that alleviate the head pounding but I can't take them at work as they make me feel like someone has removed my brain and placed it in a jar on a shelf. ARGH! oh and for wordless wed...I give you bliss....

Friday, April 17, 2009

Friday blah,

I have had a long week, Monday I had the day off (yeah vacation days) and mostly just caught up on Laundry and cleaning, Wednesday was Thing 1's track meet, yesterday I had to go to the Doc again for my monthly medication check(someday she is going to get the combination right and I will finally wake up without a headache) and today I have a girlie sleep over. 
Thing 1 has had, well actually had (past tense) a best friend(we will call her Pink) since 3rd grade. For years (6) they were inseparable....Pink spent most of her time at our house to escape from an abusive father, went on Vacations with us, mainly she was just another of my children and knew she always had a place in our home. Last year (9th grade)Pink started dabbling in drugs that were entirely too accessible as that is what her dad does for a living. At this point my daughter decided that she wanted to steer clear because she knows that is not the kind of life she is interested in living (having seen what it had done to her father and I).  Thing 1 was devastated, she cried and moped for months.  She, alot like me, has never made friends easily, especially not female friends, and the loss of Pink...sucked.  4 months ago a boy at their school overdosed on Pinks drug of choice, needless to say it scared the crap out of her.  Tonight for the first time in over 2 years Pink is coming to spend the weekend at our house. 2 years ago they were 13 and didn't care to do anything but play Rock band and Myspace all night long. Now as 16 year olds I am wondering what will transpire, will they play video games? Should I lock up all my liquor? We don't have any drugs in the house, do I search her things or trust that she is telling the truth? She isn't (wasn't) a bad girl, she just took some steps in the wrong direction. ACK.... maybe I should just kick back and enjoy the fact that thing 1 has here sister back....I don't know, but I think I am done talking about it for now, I will fill everyone in on Monday if anything exciting happens...LOL
On another note I just want to say...I finally finished the 4th book in the "Twilight" series and can I just was good. Book 4 was well worth the wait of slow ass book 2 and medium ass book 3. Now i am on to the latest Anita Black vampire novel...I heard Ann Rice was supposed to come out with another in her Vamp that true?

Monday, April 13, 2009

Easter, what Easter....

Just wanted to say "Happy Easter" even though it is a few days late. Frankie and I spent the entire weekend at the hospital. Frankie's oldest niece came down with Toxic Shock and it was pretty touch and go for almost 48 hours. Everything is fine now and the doc says as long as she refrains from having anal on her period with no contraception....well you get the picture. Again hope everyone had an awesome weekend and I will see ya soon!!!

Monday, April 6, 2009

Long but not long enough....

So..... Lone Star. No really, my weekend was fulfilling but shitty, does that make sense? I had an Art fair this weekend, now remember, I don't do art, I am the director of the children's activities, which basically means I am a babysitter for all the parents so they can walk around and spend money unhindered by their screaming children.(run on sentence much?) Anyway, we (read I) do all sorts of cool activities..Marble painting, beading, face painting, paper flowers, coloring, loom weaving, etc. etc. etc....Most of the time I have 3 or 4 volunteers one set from 9-12 and the other set from 12-4. This is perfect....if they show up. Saturday I had one person from 10-12 and then I was by myself(I was all by myself....Green day reference, anyone....anyone?) Windy as FUCK! Shit was blowing everywhere.... oh and lunch yeah right, no helpers no leave! Sunday was a little better, still didn't get any volunteers, so my MIL came and helped from 9 to 130 or 2ish. She was awesome. My daughter was supposed to help on Sunday but was assigned last minute project from her history teacher and needed to be at Lamy's house(her best friend, lamy isn't his name...) ALL frickin' day! All I can say is I AM TIRED, it was so hard to get up this a.m. So this morning I filled out a vacation request for this weekend, I am taking Friday and Monday off so I can catch up on sleep and Laundry and...and...and. You all know how it goes. OKAY, I think I am done complaining....thanks for being my shoulder to cry on. Love ya...xoxo

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Fun Idea

I got this idea from Inmates to Play dates, open Google, write (in my case) Alexandra needs, and post the top ten things Google says you need.... Here are mine
  1. Alexandra Needs... to buy a tooth.
  2. Alexandra Needs... to steal Mary's stylist.
  3. Alexandra Needs... a dose of reality inducing drugs.
  4. Alexandra Needs... ample social stimulation
  5. Alexandra Needs... a surgical intervention.
  6. Alexandra Needs... to do original songs.
  7. Alexandra Needs... a part time job.
  8. Alexandra Needs... more than just a rat trap for this vermin.
  9. Alexandra Needs... YOU.
  10. Alexandra Needs... to give it up.

What do you think? Some of them are pretty funny. The last is pretty sad, I wonder who that Alexandra really is and what they need to give up? What about number 8..... WTF?  Do I really need a tooth...LOL. Thanks FITP.... That was fun!

Tuesday, March 31, 2009


I just tried to abbreviate the word "SOLUTION" guess how it came out..... Slut...this is the funniest thing to happen to me since my last post. Sorry I am so lame, just know I am still alive!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Wordless Wednesday

New picture of Eevee, she will be 6 months old on the 3rd of April. How can a mother not love a face like this!!

Friday, March 13, 2009


Just a quick note to everyone to say that I had a doctors appt today, changed a couple of medications and got a refferal to see a sports medicine Doc...wOOt! My knees have been killing me lately. No joke to the point where I can barely stand from a regular seated position. Anyway, time to run off and get ready for the art fair! M.Y.L.Y.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Work sucks...

I am sitting at my desk, I still have over an hour to go before I can Leave and I was finished with my whole days worth of work by 8:30am(I get here at 6am). I have read every blog I can from work, some of my favorites are blocked..websense sucks, nothing from Blogger or Word press will load. I have not been around a lot lately as I am preparing for The ArtFest this coming weekend and it will be the first one where I am completely in charge, and have a real budget etc., of the children's booth/activities. Back in the beginning of my volunteer days(4 years ago) my mother was mostly in charge and all I did was paint faces, now's all me. Sometimes it freaks me out hob-knobbing with all the influential people and lots of them knowing me by name(the mayor of Oro Valley came up to me at an event recently and said hello) but mostly I thrive in this type of social environment. I am sadly extremely self-conscious unless I have had a few cocktails or I have been around you a few times and am comfortable in your presence. I have a tendency(from my mother who is exactly the same) to insert foot in mouth more often than not, therefor if I don't know you i try to refrain from making an ass out of myself. I am not sure where I am going with this, I suppose I am just hoping that everything goes well this weekend and I didn't forget anything and am not going to do to "Foot" thing. Anyways have a good weekend and I will see you on the flip side...

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

I almost pissed myself on #14

I just read this on Dad Gone Mad and thought it was to good not to pass on...

Alternatives To The Comment Cliché 'I Just Threw Up In My Mouth'

March 02, 2009

1-I just got herpes from Dick Cheney.

2-I just farted in my happy place.

3-I just let the dogs out.

4-I just dry-humped Melissa Etheridge.

5-I just threw up in that person's mouth.

6-I just dry heaved and that made someone else throw up in my mouth.

7-I just threw up in my butt.

8-I just forgot how to throw up.

9-I just threw up and it tasted like a Pop-Tart.

10-I just crapped in my adult diaper.

11-I didn't really just throw up in my mouth but I say I did because that's what everyone says when they see something gross.

12I'm thinking about throwing up in my mouth.

13-I'm presently throwing up in my mouth, so I'd better stop talking now.

14-See this? It's throw-up. It was in my mouth a second ago, but I found it kind of pointless to keep it there so I opened my mouth and now it's right there. Sweet, huh?

15-Mouth throw-up. It's what's for dinner.

16-Mouth throw-up. The other reddish-orangish-brown meat.

17-I really need to find a different blog to read.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

The new Tattoo

So here it is, the new tattoo. I have a story behind the madness if anybody gives a sh*t....ask me otherwise it is too long to bother! Love ya!! new favorite shirt. Every Saint has a past, the back says every sinner has a future! my new motto for life in general!


This meme has been floating around for a couple weeks, finally had some insparation....Love you Frankie!
1.  He's sitting in front of the TV.  What is on the screen?
NatGeo...Science Channel Or Discoverychannel
2. You're out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?
Italian or Ranch
3. What's one food he doesn't like?
4. You go out to eat and have a drink. What does he order?
Sierra Mist
5. Where did he go to high school?
Michigan And Arizona
6. What size shoe does he wear?
I say 8.5 he would say 9
7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be?
Guns, idk, anything but
8. What is his favorite type of sandwich?!
Italian Salami....ish
9. What would this person eat every day if he could?
ummm Doritos or Swedish fish maybe?
10. What is his favorite cereal?
Frosted Mini Wheats w/extra sugar?
11. What would he never wear?
12. What is his favorite sports team?
13. Who did he vote for?
Not who I voted for...we don't talk about that.
14. Who is his best friend?
Hugh or maybe Keith...ME?
15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do?
jump to conclusions and Texting when tone of voice is important.
16. What is his heritage?
I really don't know. He has amazing blue eyes though
17. You bake him a cake for his birthday; what kind of cake?
I don't bake, I would buy it and It would be from Frost... gelato
18. Did he play sports in high school?
elementary, just Hockey
19. What could he spend hours doing?
Video games


Saturday, February 28, 2009

Not Today....not ever.

Oh Lisa...I am so sorry that you had to die in pain. I watched my grandmother pass from cancer. It was the hardest thing I have ever been through, i can think of nothing harder. Pain, tears, ultimate saddness. I truly hope there is peace after life, no one should have to endure what Lisa's daughters had to see. I wish them the best in all of their lives. Good Bye Lisa...You will be missed!


I am getting a tattoo in less than an hour!! What's better than that you ask, getting something for free because I am getting tattooed. Can't tell you now, don't want to jinx it.

Oh and on a side note, spent 2.5 hours at Chuckie fucking Cheese today. Next time remind me of the migraine please. I hate C.C. UGH!!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Wordless wednesday

These flowers were picked on what used to be the family farm in Louisville KY. My grandmother recently pasted away and my mother sold the farm to a developer. On our last family vacation we took our kids to the spot that used to be my favorite place to think. While we were there we found these plain but beautiful flowers and decided to pay respect to my Grandmothers grave and left them there on her headstone. Last year I lost both of my Grandmothers within weeks of each other...tough thing to have to deal with one dying let alone both in three weeks. These pictures bring back a lot of memories, some sad..but mostly happy because I shared so many memories with my children that week. I will always remember....

Thursday, February 5, 2009


Life is interesting sometimes..... do you ever get the feeling that you have done it all before, how about the first time you meet someone and you swear you have met their male/female twin.... I am having one of those days. I took the day off of work because I hurt my dumb ass yesterday and spent the first half of the morning at the occupational health office, while there I sat next to a woman who was having a conversation with her cell phone, she was talking about someone who I know from a long time high school. I did not know the woman sitting there but she was talking about something that happened in high school....I was at the event in which they were talking about. It was not a pretty night, in fact if I had the choice I would completely delete this night from the history of the earth. I almost killed my self that night. The woman sitting next to me actually started talking about the incident in which I almost died...they were laughing about it. Back then I didn't take my own mortality very serious, I did a lot of acid, drank a lot of beer, etc..... but sitting there next to the woman who was so callously laughing about my stupidity...It was pretty harsh!
So tell me Internet, has anything like this ever happened to you?
Did you ever do something where you almost died, even if it wasn't a serious situation and no one else thought it was as dangerous as you felt it was afterwords??
I need to fell like I am not the only stupid person alive still today??

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Super Bowl??

Is anyone else surprised by the fact that the Cardinals actually made it? I don't normally watch football, but Frankie and I had a great idea, DVR the game and watch it later but fast forward thru the game and just watch the comercials and half time.

I am currently sitting on my couch with my new PINK laptop!! I love it, it is a Sony Vaio and it is the prettiest shade of pink i think ever!!!

Thing one and I are going to see Katy Perry tomorrow night at the U of A, I am so excited. It has been awhile since i went to a concert. I believe the last concert I saw was The Cure up in Phoenix last year. Took thing one and thing two to that one as well...thing two hates Katy though so we are not going to drag him with us.

I have been fighting this stupid illness for awhile, I have lost 20 pounds in a month and a half. I can't sleep and my headaches are not getting any better. less frequent but damn if I am going to be miserable....

Well I am off to watch some funny commercials. love ya...

Monday, January 19, 2009

I'm sorry I suck so bad..............

at updating my blog, life has been kind of crazy at casa chaos. Knuckles has been being a terror for the last couple of weeks, getting in trouble at school, talking back to all of his parental units, and just being a general pain in the ass! Frankie and I both ended up with pretty bad cases of bronchitis and I missed 4 days of was awful, being a smoker doesn't help and I have been coughing my head off for 2 solid weeks. It is hard to think about much besides how miserable you feel when you feel so miserable!!!

On another note Frankie got a PS3 for a late Christmas present and we got the game Little Big Planet, which is absolutely the best game ever besides Animal Planet for the Wii which is what I got for Christmas. Between those 2 games and systems we haven't done much else. I also got the WHOLE Twilight series and am seriously addicted, Bella is a lot like me and I find it quite hysterical that she is so idiotically stupid sometimes. On another note I think that Robert Pattenson is a poor, poor choice for Edward.

That about sums up everything from after Christmas until now, I am a County employee so I have today off, silly but I will take any free payed day off I can get. I was driving to my mothers house this morning , it was around 930am and I had all the windows rolled down and the sun was shining and I realized that I live in on of the most truly beautiful places in the USA. It is currently 75 degrees, no wind, blue skies and majestic mountains all around. Thing one has said that as soon as she graduates High School she is moving someplace where it rains and snow, i just don't understand. Although she has lived in Tucson all her life so she really doesn't have anything to compare it to. I was also thinking to myself that I have a wonderful loving husband(he may be a little oh well) 3 beautiful children who are all brilliant and relatively well behaved, 3 wonderful dogs that are all fantastic, a beautiful new house and for the first time in my life I feel completely happy and fulfilled. I mean i suppose I could find something to complain about (ex husband marrying my best friend and knocking her up after swearing to me that he would never have anymore kids to the point where we fought about who was going to get fixed while we were still may want to go back and read the part before the parenthesis that was kinda long) but what is the point. All the things that stress me out I really can't do anything about so why stress out over nothing!

I also would like to wish Lisa the best last few months...may they be the best ever. Clusterfook was one of the first blogs I started reading and I found her story to be extremely inspirational. I thought if this woman who is going through so much can find time to document her life I should be able to...right. Lisa I love you and I wish you the best! Thank you for sharing your life and struggles and pain with us all.

Anyway, i apologize again for staying away so long, I was busy living and enjoying my life. see ya next time.....xoxo

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Holiday Update...LATE, LATE, LATE...

Sorry I haven't been around...the Holidays kept us all very busy. My Christmas dinner turned out fantastic and a wonderful time was had by all. Santa was so generous this year, thing one and thing two made out like bandits. We had our New year/ housewarming party and it went great as well. Didn't have too many people show up which was actually kind of nice. We ended up with those of our friends we consider the closest at midnight and that was perfect. Frankie has a pretty nasty cold that has turned into Bronchitis, and of course, what he gets I get..... have taken the last three days off work but sadly I have to go back tomorrow. Anyway hope all of your Holidays were as good as mine and welcome to 2009!!!